RESOLUTIONS

I was watching television tonight..Entertainment TONIGHT to be exact..and they were speaking of New Years Resolutions, they were asking stars or those who are infamous- Kevin Federline was one, dont really remember what he said..But, Sharon Stone who is somewhat admirable said the most compelling thing about resolutions, I dont make them because I try to work on myself contiunously..
I was saying to myself Amen sister!
I attempted to make a resolution one year, I did say attempt..But I didnt get to the 2nd day of January and it was all out the window. I actually forget about it till the next new years eve..
I have alot of plans for the year and contiuously working on myself and ways I can improve who I am, what Im doing, even when Im tired of 'myself' working. To know your assets, your faults, and what you most definitely dont possess and should, is to humbly submit yourself to the pressure of life, society, an occasional self butt kicking, to struggle but see the brighter side, to be optimistic when you are thinking negatively, to cry and pick yourself up, to fall and get back up with dignity or even some shame..To really know who you are, where you stand,what you are, and who you are not!
There are alot of things that I am not, and Im not talking about the 'I dont steal or lie' not's. For example, Im not as sympathetic as I should be, I dont have the heart to be a nurse, yet I know I would get emotionally attached to sick children and their families..I know Im lacking that emotion that most nurses have..I said most! I know that I cant draw a stick man, but I can as my mother puts it, baffle em with brilliance and fool 'em with B.S., Ive always wondered if that was good! I can write a research paper that would sear the depths of hell and really only read half of the material...
I know that I can talk to anyone and get along with anyone if they are sane or at least medicated for insanity, thats not always good, end up talking too long to strangers in Walmart or the gas station! I know what Im good at, what Im not, what Im willing to learn, and what just 'AINT' happening!
I have big plans for the year, goals that I would like to meet, things and places that I would like to do, well see for the places..lol
I have been saying for weeks that I am going to write today, Im going to write..Now that Christmas is over with and most of the dramatic soap opera moments are rolling their credits,today is a new day,and a new post tomorrow..I need a good end line..Sorry for the ramble, random thoughts, and I hope the moral of the story can be found in there somewhere..
ALSO: I sincerely thank all of you who have sent comments to me about the blog, it is greatly appreciated especially knowing that someone gets my sense of humor, my stories,the moral, the line, and the skinny of the long drawn out version..Thank you very much!

when we think of...

When we think of Christmas what do we really expect? I know we have the religious meaning of when Christ was born..But as asociety, what do we expect right now? We are at war, our economy is supposedly rising but most of us are struggling to make amends after forking out half a kidney when nothing was everything..So what do we expect..Its bad when we have to work extra hours to get our child that expensive game-psp, wii, ps3 or whatever..its even worse when you cant afford it right?..do we expect to be able to get everyone a gift..what about those who are recovering from last years devastations? What about those that have no idea where their family may be..what about the people who have no one to visit them...or feel like no one even gives a rats arse about them..
Its very hard for me to get into the holiday spirit as I have had a rough year..But I do so for my son..and for those around me, for those that are less fortunate..for those who I know could have it alot worse than myself..While many of us whine about not getting that BIG RING, PRADA Bag, or that vacation to Fiji we wanted..Guess what, Its been years since I received a gift..and didnt get one this year..In all honesty, it would have been nice, I probably would have cried, because of the thought that someone thought about me..
Being a single mom,its hard as hell, have my parents to help me out, and theyve been there even when I really WANT to do it myself and most of the time I will..But I do receive my gift every day that I wake up and see his smile,or listen to him sing some song that I cant get out of my head for a week, or sad to say when the cat is running from him and he's yelling Baby dont leave, I'll change..Or see him do the D-Generation X thingy from Wresting and pass gas..He would so die if he saw this..and disclaimer never said my family was normal..Last night we were almost peeing on ourselves laughing having snot tissue fights with his tissue, while it may be gross to some, its a moment for me..Its my Christmas..While I feel like Ive been beat up, hog tied and beat up again everytime I try to stand up, its my present to see that my son can smile at what he was fortunate enough to get even if mommy did have to give her kidneys,bladder, colon, and right eye...Merry CHRISTmas..and the blogs will come more often now..we will pick up where I was supposed to start off..oh and in the process of building a website for careers,resume,employment,work at home,etc etc..and shopping of course..

apologies

I apologize for my lack of presence, one of my cousins from Chicago was found dead the next morning by his wife. But I will be back full force in the next day or so after funeral arrangements have been made and all else has been settled, his mother is the oldest child of 15 kids, and my grandmother raised her sister's 6 kids..One thing about compassion, and I knew that I wasnt meant to be a nurse because of this, I always have found myself feeling a mother's pain when they have to bury their child. I have a son, but just the inkling of the thought, the It Could Be Me hypothesis..I dont know what I would do or where I would be if I ever had to do that, so my sympathy and heartfelt condolences go out to any parent, mother, grandmother, that has to experience that pain..My prayers are with you.

FREE TV

I ran across a site, that offers Free Web TV, they host NICK, USA, Cartoon Network, ABC, Animal Planet, a few ESPN's, Fox, FOX SPORTS, several other channels. A very interesting concept and its free. They do recommend that you have broadband or DSL, and I do as well.
You do have to download the software and from there I am unsure what happens. I have yet to see any complaints about the site as I get all the channels already. here it is.. Free Web-TV
The front of the site may look a little scary and odd, but take a look around and it gets better.

forgot

I so forgot to give you all a fair warning, when I sometimes say that I will be back the next day, I will try my best to be, but I do have a habit of procrastinating, But I am still here, alot is going on with Christmas coming up. Son's school homecoming is tomorrow, well its 12am, tonight rather, and he plays basketball...Planning things for the upcoming year, moving, etc etc..But, sometimes expect things a day or 2 later..I will try my best to get better at this, I have no excuses really.But I will be back in this and posting as much as I can as soon as I can before the weekend..Take care and be safe
Butafli

recently

Recently, I was on yahoo Answers, and came across a young lady that wanted to see more blogs about interracial dating. I am an interracial dater, I will add pictures of myself later. This is a Disclaimer Right Here Right Now: For those of you who are offended by this post, there is an X at the top of your browser that you can click and you dont have to read this, but if you chose to, there is absoultely no reason for you to get your panties in a wad and want to crucify me, frankly I dont care, but leave room for those who have something constructive to ask or say..For those of you who feel that the world should be one way and not the other, then Stay that way, I am not here to change the world or Your mind. You are entitled to the way you want to live and Im entitled to mine..as are others..There isnt enough on the internet about interracial dating. About the topic in general, and I hope over a certain number of posts to address the topic in an informing way. To do that I will have to tell you some things about myself, which I was planning on not fully doing. But to inform the masses, I will do so, so to get something sometimes you have to give something. And later tonight after I think about this and get some more things done, we will start a small educational conference. I will not answer sexual questions. But I will answer reasonable questions, Im not Dr. Ruth and dont claim to be. I will answer some myths, some facts, and the reality. So enjoy! and come back to see me now ya her'

after much thought and deliberation..

I really have no idea what I want to post about..Theres so much going through my mind that its hard to just concentrate on what exact thought. Doing a little research on blogs, Ive seen that most blog start off with the stumped post..Im tired, but yet I want my following of fans, and for them to come I must build it. I want to start off by saying that I have every intention of not making this a political satire blog, but a blog with humor, about being a mother, maybe a few rants and raves about situations. And I hope to lend some advice here to people who may need or want it, Ive been through alot, and would never tell someone about something that I have not done or am aware of myself, and well informed. I dont plan on trying to sell things, there will be links because a sister has to make something. Im an avid bookreader, so I will be suggesting books to read, depending on your likes and tastes..I have days that I enjoy certain songs, or in moods for country, alternative, Im diverse, very..You shouldnt know to much about me, but just enough about me of course...And I hope to give you as much as I can..Im currently researching affiliate marketing although Im a college student again-eating up my GI Bill, so it will be after the first of the year once I really get into that, but research is productive, so many scams out there..
Christmas is coming up, and I HOPE to pass along a few stories, anecdotes, advice, know how, and how to make it this holiday and get to the new year fresh, dont worry we will be doing it together..I will be posting information about small business, entrepreneurship, working at home, kids, things to know, information to pass along, contribute some to society..You arent just reading what I alone think, hopefully you will get something out of it..ITS 2AM, so past time for bed, and we will start this fresh maybe Sunday, Monday. Hope you all have a safe weekend. Take care, MUAH!!