The interracial blog is now at a different url. I have been writing the posts over time, and had planned to copy and paste them here one by one, but it will be published shortly at a different blog address. So, look forward to seeing some of the responses, discussions, suggestions are welcome. Topics that you would like to know about are also. Thank you for your patience and your comments.
I was given the news that my cousin is pregnant. This is the cousin that we always thought would probably never have kids, because of medical problems that unfortunately run in our family. Having the same medical problems, I chose to not aggressively attempt to treat mine at a younger age. And now as well, because of the fear of never being able to have another child. I have the dream of having another baby, would love to give my husband-future husband- a child. I have an 11 year old, that I gave birth to at 16, with my mother being the 'control freak' she is, the experience of motherhood was never something that was offered for me.
When my mother told me, I had chills run down my body, I was and still am soo excited for her, Im even threatening her to sit down and rest or else from 300 miles away almost but still. For a few years they had been trying to conceive, did one round of fertility drugs, which we all just remembered 5 minutes ago..and we joked about the nightmares and scary times if she did have twins, it was all a good laugh. Her brother screamed when she called him at work, her younger brother,almost passed out. But we are all in the end soo happy for her, I cant say I could picture her as a mother, possibly because we believed that it was something that would never happen maybe. I dont know, but I am so anxious and excited, and antsy for her moment. They stopped trying to conceive, her husband told her "maybe you need to go test yourself because babe, you're being pretty mean and you're eating everything." And wouldnt you know. Here comes baby, or two. Her mother, my aunt, said noooo ONE HEALTHY BABY!! They have also forgot twins run in our family-my mothers a twin, and fertility drugs, hmm, its not looking too good. But still its exciting to see someone else's dream come true when they least expected it.
When we think of Christmas what do we really expect? I know we have the religious meaning of when Christ was born..But as asociety, what do we expect right now? We are at war, our economy is supposedly rising but most of us are struggling to make amends after forking out half a kidney when nothing was everything..So what do we expect..Its bad when we have to work extra hours to get our child that expensive game-psp, wii, ps3 or whatever..its even worse when you cant afford it right?..do we expect to be able to get everyone a gift..what about those who are recovering from last years devastations? What about those that have no idea where their family may be..what about the people who have no one to visit them...or feel like no one even gives a rats arse about them..
Its very hard for me to get into the holiday spirit as I have had a rough year..But I do so for my son..and for those around me, for those that are less fortunate..for those who I know could have it alot worse than myself..While many of us whine about not getting that BIG RING, PRADA Bag, or that vacation to Fiji we wanted..Guess what, Its been years since I received a gift..and didnt get one this year..In all honesty, it would have been nice, I probably would have cried, because of the thought that someone thought about me..
Being a single mom,its hard as hell, have my parents to help me out, and theyve been there even when I really WANT to do it myself and most of the time I will..But I do receive my gift every day that I wake up and see his smile,or listen to him sing some song that I cant get out of my head for a week, or sad to say when the cat is running from him and he's yelling Baby dont leave, I'll change..Or see him do the D-Generation X thingy from Wresting and pass gas..He would so die if he saw this..and disclaimer never said my family was normal..Last night we were almost peeing on ourselves laughing having snot tissue fights with his tissue, while it may be gross to some, its a moment for me..Its my Christmas..While I feel like Ive been beat up, hog tied and beat up again everytime I try to stand up, its my present to see that my son can smile at what he was fortunate enough to get even if mommy did have to give her kidneys,bladder, colon, and right eye...Merry CHRISTmas..and the blogs will come more often now..we will pick up where I was supposed to start off..oh and in the process of building a website for careers,resume,employment,work at home,etc etc..and shopping of course..
Recently, I was on yahoo Answers, and came across a young lady that wanted to see more blogs about interracial dating. I am an interracial dater, I will add pictures of myself later. This is a Disclaimer Right Here Right Now: For those of you who are offended by this post, there is an X at the top of your browser that you can click and you dont have to read this, but if you chose to, there is absoultely no reason for you to get your panties in a wad and want to crucify me, frankly I dont care, but leave room for those who have something constructive to ask or say..For those of you who feel that the world should be one way and not the other, then Stay that way, I am not here to change the world or Your mind. You are entitled to the way you want to live and Im entitled to mine..as are others..There isnt enough on the internet about interracial dating. About the topic in general, and I hope over a certain number of posts to address the topic in an informing way. To do that I will have to tell you some things about myself, which I was planning on not fully doing. But to inform the masses, I will do so, so to get something sometimes you have to give something. And later tonight after I think about this and get some more things done, we will start a small educational conference. I will not answer sexual questions. But I will answer reasonable questions, Im not Dr. Ruth and dont claim to be. I will answer some myths, some facts, and the reality. So enjoy! and come back to see me now ya her'
