ARE YOU READY??!!!!!

We have so far had so many things that have happened since the beginning of the New Year..are they worth mentioning in all honesty? Some are, some are not..On January 1st, I committed to believing in my mind and heart that 2006 would only be a blurry and very very foggy memory that I learned valuable lessons from. Mistakes I would not repeat, people I hope to never see, family who I will allow to no longer use,mistreat,manipulate,or any other thing/act a family member isnt supposed to do to someone they love...
To live, fully live, is to fully embrace "CHANGE"...That is something that I believe, we get used to things the way that they are, we feel secure with how our situation is and we are left afraid of what we dont know or are unfamiliar with..Why should we? You can't live, you can't breathe, you can't FULLY LIVE!! You will only know what you see on TV, you will only know what you read in books, you will only live each day to see,feel,think,taste what you have day in and day out felt,thought,tasted,did,acted, and my dears, what is the point.?
Why not step outside your comfort zone, step outside of what for 10 years, 25 years, or 50 years, you have always known, and see what it feels like to really be free, to really feel, to experience something different..Im not saying go cheat on your spouse, steal, rob, kill, USE COMMON SENSE please..Go skydiving, go hiking, cook something you have never made before and laugh when you half ass burn up the kitchen and still smell that stuff a week later..And laugh, laugh at yourself, dont always take yourself so seriously, and dont believe everything you hear and read..just take from it what applies to yourself and be happy..Dont let someone else decide your fate,your joy, your sadness, your pain, your tears for you..ITS YOUR TIME...NEW YEAR, NEW YOU..a good song, Tim McGraw 'live like you were dying'

when we think of...

When we think of Christmas what do we really expect? I know we have the religious meaning of when Christ was born..But as asociety, what do we expect right now? We are at war, our economy is supposedly rising but most of us are struggling to make amends after forking out half a kidney when nothing was everything..So what do we expect..Its bad when we have to work extra hours to get our child that expensive game-psp, wii, ps3 or whatever..its even worse when you cant afford it right?..do we expect to be able to get everyone a gift..what about those who are recovering from last years devastations? What about those that have no idea where their family may be..what about the people who have no one to visit them...or feel like no one even gives a rats arse about them..
Its very hard for me to get into the holiday spirit as I have had a rough year..But I do so for my son..and for those around me, for those that are less fortunate..for those who I know could have it alot worse than myself..While many of us whine about not getting that BIG RING, PRADA Bag, or that vacation to Fiji we wanted..Guess what, Its been years since I received a gift..and didnt get one this year..In all honesty, it would have been nice, I probably would have cried, because of the thought that someone thought about me..
Being a single mom,its hard as hell, have my parents to help me out, and theyve been there even when I really WANT to do it myself and most of the time I will..But I do receive my gift every day that I wake up and see his smile,or listen to him sing some song that I cant get out of my head for a week, or sad to say when the cat is running from him and he's yelling Baby dont leave, I'll change..Or see him do the D-Generation X thingy from Wresting and pass gas..He would so die if he saw this..and disclaimer never said my family was normal..Last night we were almost peeing on ourselves laughing having snot tissue fights with his tissue, while it may be gross to some, its a moment for me..Its my Christmas..While I feel like Ive been beat up, hog tied and beat up again everytime I try to stand up, its my present to see that my son can smile at what he was fortunate enough to get even if mommy did have to give her kidneys,bladder, colon, and right eye...Merry CHRISTmas..and the blogs will come more often now..we will pick up where I was supposed to start off..oh and in the process of building a website for careers,resume,employment,work at home,etc etc..and shopping of course..